I know a little bit how these people feel.. Seems like every other person I disclose my AS to tells me that they don't "see" it. As if you should be able to.
Monday, February 6, 2012
and I want my family to see that. I function too well to be able to get myself on any kind of funding. I can make a budget and stick to it, I can write a check, I can buy groceries, I know how to read a bus schedule and actually understand it. I don't believe that I need funding as badly as this woman does, and I am definitely not as autistic as this man. The only thing I still need to be able to live indepently is an income that's enough to support myself with. I will never be able to get myself on disability, so I need for my family to stop trying to talk me into applying again, so I can concentrate on getting myself what I need; a life. What makes me really angry and resentful about this is that the people closest to me are determinedly "Pollyanna" about all this. They just assume that I will be able to get it. Except for one problem: if I could get disability, I would be on it by now. Not only that, there would be other aspies who are also on disability. I don't know of anyone, diagnosed with Asperger's, who are on disability or ssi. And believe me, I've looked. I've looked to the point where I have to conclude that these people, who have AS and actually have funding, have faded into the wallpaper, or become invisible. Or moved somewhere, and dropped off the map.