Sunday, January 23, 2011
Haven't posted for just over 3 months now...at first, it was because I was busy finishing up an ABE course. Then when I was done, I couldn't think of anything to write, and I was distracted by the holidays anyways. I did start thinking, though, about why it is that I am as high functioning as I am. Could be that I'm just lucky, it could be that I come from a big family. But I like to think that at least part of it is something that I've been doing since I was a child, sometimes without even realizing it. Recently, I decided to call this "Push and Float", because it seems like I'm either pushing against my AS, or I'm floating with it, and it looks like I'm getting better at it, although slowly. It's certainly not foolproof; I admit that sometimes I should be pushing when I'm floating, and sometimes I should be floating when I'm pushing. And on bad days, it seems like I get caught in some big ass whirlpool, where all I do is spin around. But I am getting better. I could never explain the theory behind this method though....I don't understand it well enough to put it into words beyond what I have written here. And besides, it's past my bedtime.